Weekly Weigh In...

First off, thanks so much for all the wonderful comments you all have made. I so appreciate them. I have been super busy and think the next few weeks may go the same way so I plan on at least posting my weigh in. Sorry if I can't keep up w/you all.

So...here it is...
Weight change since your last recorded weight -1.1 lb
Total weight change to date -26.2 lb

Oh, if only I had started this BEFORE getting pg!!!
15 straight weeks of a loss... yeah me! Thanks girls, as always!! You are part of what keeps me going!

Weekly Weigh In...

Weight change since your last recorded weight -1.5 lb
Total weight change to date -25.1 lb

Okay, I am posting this b/c you girls are great but it is so hard for me to do. For those of you who do the math you will know about where I started and about how much I weigh right now. I have ALOT more to go, but there you have it. BTW, I hit the 10% in the first .1 of this weeks loss. The rest is just a bonus...

CONGRATULATIONS! You've achieved your 10% target! Way to go! You're probably feeling a great sense of accomplishment for reaching this major milestone! (sadly, i makes me feel icky b/c I have sooooooooooooooo much more to lose... )

BTW, that is 14 straight weeks of a loss. And yes, i really do think if you have more to lose it will come off more consitantly than it does for those of you who have only a few lbs to lose. I know it will slow down, but it is definately helpful at this point.I had 2 days of high point eating (at quite a few of my flex pts this week, but still managed to do okay.

Maybe it kicked my metabolism in gear!)Thanks all for always checking in and cheering me on.

Happy 4th!

Just wanted to wish you all a Happy 4th of July! Good luck at all the bbq's and parties you may be attending!

Weekly Weigh In...

Weight change since your last recorded weight
-0.4 lb
Total weight change to date
-23.6 lb

Well, this is my 14 week total and 14 weeks of a loss! Not sure how I did it, but I will take it. Think I can lose 3.4 lbs in 3 weeks? It is okay if I don't, but it would be nice if I could hit that goal!

Wish me luck!

Fate or good karma?

Whatever it was, I will take it and be glad for it!

So, I had a bad night last night. My daughter was up most of it and I was tired this morning, which tends to make me really hungry. I went into the day planning on blowing my points just b/c and not really caring that i have a wi tomorrow!

I managed to control myself, mostly and eat items w/in my point range. For dinner tonight I did a Mc'D's run and thought, I will get my dh a minty mudbath, but a large so I can drink some of it (probably about 1/2). The ice cream machine was DOWN! How do you like that? I had totally planned on sabotaging myself and couldn't! Fate or karma or whatever it is, THANK YOU! I was able to go home w/my salad and for desert I had some frozen cherries w/whip cream!

Holy cow! Can you imagine how bad I would be feeling if that stupid machine was working?

P.S...for those that are looking for my cousin, Michelle (rhaztas...sound off) she has just got back to the states and doesn't have a blog up and running yet. If she gets to it I will make sure to post about it so you all will know. :-)

How do you all do it?

I did so well keeping up on my blog when I was at home with the kids (not sure how, only that nap times were always kept)! and now...it is hit or miss. I also don't seem to have time to come up w/great and motivational topics!
Oh well, at least I know you are all out there and if I need a kick in the booty, you will be there for me.
Fortunately, I have done well. Thank goodness! Work is so stressful and in the past it would have easily meant a yummy treat, and then another and then one more. Now all I think about is how happy I will be to have another loss and how many weeks in a row I can go w/losing. I am 3 lbs from my first mini goal and I have 4 weeks to get there. I am so happy about that and deteremined to do it! Once there the goals will reset but I can take my time deciding (at least 3 lbs worth of time)!!! lol!
So glad to see you all over here and commenting on my blog. When I get a chance I will add some more of you to my blogroll!

All good things come with change...

I went to google search and didn't find much of my "cached" items...but I did transfer what did come up. Soooooooooooooooo, I guess this is almost a new beginning! Too bad I really liked the old home I had.
Oh well, all things good come with change and that is what my attitude is for my weight loss as well.

All things good come with change...that is my healthy lifestyle, my families health, my new found energy, my (soon to be) thin self...and the list goes on!

Tell me, what good things are coming in your life from change?

Today is a new day!

Well, I spent some time trying to figure this blog site out today. I think it should be pretty easy but I have to have some time on it to know for sure. I did get some of the links added I had on the old site...good thing cause I missed you guys!!!!!

So, today was a good day. I was STARVING yesterday (must have been b/c it was WI day) but I made it thru the day w/points left over...not sure how that happened. I just finished my last 2 points of the day and I am feeling pretty good. I drank my h2o today (100 oz) and am ready for my day tomorrow. I am going to the beach w/some of the kids from work so I will be packing my own lunch! Those work lunches are icky!!!! Maybe I can talk one of the kids in going for a walk.

Other news...I plan on quiting my job soon. I can't really afford it, but it is making me crazy. I will be looking so if any of you know of any openings, things to work from home would be great, let me know, otherwise just wish me luck! :-)

Wow, I am boring. Sorry!

Well, here I am

Thanks to Strawgirl & Swizzlepop for directing me this way. I don't have much time right now to get this all set up, but plan on working on transfering data this weekend and whenever I can...
I was so bummed out to see the old site (Roni's) had crashed.

Anyway, I weighed in today and I am down 1.1 for a 13 week total of 23.3 lbs (that is 13 straight weeks of a loss)!

yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will try and catch up w/you all later.

Going to a conference!

Posted by july on June 22nd, 2007
I am going to a conference in Anaheim this weekend. I hate those things. I have to pay $15 for continental breakfast, which I won’t even touch and then figure out how to get all my veggies in for the day. I am not sure if I will have access to my computer so I will just have to write my points down (guessing for some) and then put them in when I get back.
The good news is I am excited about the conference. My husband is in the Air national Guard and I am a family readiness volunteer. We help to make sure the families and friends are kept in the loop and can find information if a member is deployed. It is a neat thing to do and the conference is all about how to make it better.
Well, must get back to work, but wanted to share my woos and excitement! See you all soon!

Checking in!

Great day! I have been on track now for 3 days…not that I was ever off track, just struggling to deal with the hunger issues. They seem to be under control, for now. I came home toight and made Pizza Pasta Casserole posted on “my life…in a blog”! It was awesome. Toddler and dh approved.
I am hanging in and hope you all are doing well too. Must go, but wanted to post about that yummy caserole!

Weekly Weigh In...

Weight change since your last recorded weight
-0.3 lb
Total weight change to date
-22.1 lb
Well, guess I did okay. So happy to not have a gain and that makes 12 straight weeks of a loss!!!! Woo Hoo!!!
Thanks all!

Had to skip WI...

My dh was gone and I just couldn’t get things coordinated enough w/both the kids by myself. Sooooooooooooo, wish me luck. I am doing it tomorrow and really want to do well but I am a little nervous. I was so hungry last week who knows how it will go. I am just hoping to not gain! Seriously, keep your fingers crossed for me. Thanks.

I think I figured it out!

So, I had to examine why I was so hungry yesterday and going back over the past few weeks (4 weeks to be exact) it has been like that every Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday and by Thursday I am fine. Well, I have been back to work for 4 weeks and I am still a nursing mom so on the weekends my daughter just eat whenever and a lot during that 10-3 time frame. Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, I think that my body has gotten used to producing a lot during that time and those first few days I am re-adjusting to only pumping twice while I am at work after feeding her on demand over the weekend. By Thursday I am used to it and just fine. That is why I think I am so hungry!
Sorry if that was TMI for some of you.
Anyway, thanks for all your suggestions yesterday. I will definately use some of them anyway. Now that I know I will be hungry next week for those 3 days I will be better prepared.

Why???Why am I so darned hungry?

The last few days have been rough. I have been STARVING during the day. From about 9am until about 3 pm I want to eat, eat, eat. I am finding filling foods and having them, and drinking a ton of water but nothing is helping.
I have gone home and had dinner and a snack and that helps but if I continue to be hungry like this during the day I am afraid I may just give in and have something I know I shouldn’t have! Too many points used there! Uggg!!!!
Any ideas? I have tried popcorn as a filler too and that isn’t working. I have gotten up from my desk and taken a good long walk. I have tried chewing gum, but besides making my jaw hurt it did nothing else. I have had a huge salad w/a bunch of wonderful veggies and some turkey on it for lunch today. I had 2 (1 pt) muffins that I made. I had grapes and some dried apples.
Uggg, looking at it I have eaten a ton but I am still hungry!!!! This sucks!

Call me coach!

Do you remember a couple of weeks ago I wrote about being called the WW Nazi? Well guess what? I am the only one of the group of 5 girls that called me that who has consitantly lost weight. One of them has asked me to “coach” her thru this week. I came in and told her several things she needed to do for the next week and how to track it so I can see it. If she doesn’t do what I told her to she has to come and clean my house for 8 hours.
Now, as much as I want her to succeed…a slave for 8 hours would be great. lol…seriously though, we picked something that we knew would motivate her to follow thru on b/c she does not like to clean.
Isn’t it funny how things work out sometimes?

Weekly Weigh In...

Weight change since your last recorded weight
-1.5 lb
Total weight change to date
-21.8 lb
WOO HOO!!!!! That is 11 straight weeks of losing!!!
Thanks to everyone for your support. It would definately be a lot harder to do this w/out you!

Chex 100 calorie packs!

Oh, these are yummy…the kind I got are chocolate and caramel. They are 2 pts each and just enough to give you a great taste of sweet chocolate crispy and caramel.
I give these 2 thumbs up!

Weekly Weigh In...

Down 1.1 lb for a 5 week total of 13.5 lbs…(now I guess I really have to start believing that 1 lb a week is good, since I am nursing).
This is taken off the ww web site (my inspirational quote they give me every week)…
WAY TO GO! Congratulations for losing weight this week. We hope you’re thrilled with the result. Here’s a quote by Aristotle that we thought might strike a chord with you: “We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then, is not an act, but a habit.”
Keep practicing your excellence and have a great week.
So, I guess they are telling me I need to repeatedly eat well and exercise in order to be healthy (and lose weight, but to also maintain)!
Hey, isn’t this similar to what I wrote about last night? Habits…addictions…okay, I want to overtake my addiction with a healthy HABIT!

1 week...

I go back to work in 1 week. I am really struggling with this because I don’t want to. I want to be a stay at home mom. I am so enjoying it this time around (last time I had some baby blues so I was ready to go back). I love being with my son and daughter every day and I hate that I won’t be the one to take care of them, but I have to work. We do have a mortgage to pay.
I am struggling with the depression that this is causing me. It really makes me sad, and in turn, makes me want to eat. I keep telling myself that I don’t need to, and it is working, but that little demon is still there.
No need to worry, yet, about me. I will be fine and I am in a good place right now where I can continually push that little buggar away when he says “go on, you want to binge…” The thing is, I don’t. I don’t want to binge. I want to be healthy. So, I will be.
I still have to go back to work and when I get there, I will have to deal with all the food and parties and events that they have but I will be fine. So will my kids. I just wish…
If only I could win the lottery!

Cucumber and Tomato Salad

For all of you who are looking for a quick and easy way to change up your veggies! (I am always looking for something new to make my husband eat them…the toddler loved this too)
I made this last night for dinner. 0 points! Yummy too!
2 peeled chopped cucumbers
3 chopped tomato’s
FF Italian dressing
Italian seasoning….
Mix veggies and stir in some Italian dressing and seasoning to taste.

The irony of flying time!

We have all heard the phrase “Time flies when you are having fun,” and really, it does. The reason I bring this up is the post I wrote earlier about going back to work (I’m on a roll today). I am having fun. My daughter is 13 weeks old and I go back to work after she is 14 weeks old. I will have been off work for a total of 3 1/2 months, 4 1/2 if you count the 4 weeks prior to her birth that I was off. I am so lucky and I have been having a great time. It has gone by so fast. Too fast.
I have also noticed, how fast time goes by when I gain weight. It must be fun…ha ha! Really, I enjoy eating, so gaining weight would make sense that it happens “quicker” than I can keep track of.
The irony of this statement is that losing weight (well, in my head it is irony), which isn’t fun, takes FOREVER! I enjoy being healthy, but don’t enjoy restricting myself and the things that I eat. I don’t enjoy watching everyone else enjoy sweets and treats and bread and other things, while I feel deprived. Again, one of those stupid mental things I am working on.
I am actually trying to make losing weight fun. I make good, healthy foods (tasty too). I enjoy my exercise. I make short term “bets” with myself. I want to make this fun…so time will fly.

I know we have all said this...or at least most of us but

food is my addiction. I do not drink alcohol to excess, I do not use drugs, I do not over-exercise (although it probably wouldn’t hurt to have more movement in my life), I do not get involved in sleazy things on-line or in real life, I do not…the list goes on and on and on. I do, however, eat.
The problem with food as an addiction is you need it to survive. It’s not like you can just stop eating and attend meetings and be “dry” or “clean.” You have to eat. I could stop eating chocolate or sugar, but then I would eat more bread or meat or cheese. I can not survive on veggies alone (although I love them, I would go crazy). You know, they say when an alcoholic or drug addict return to using after being “dry” they start off right where they left off. So, for example, an alcoholic who needed 24 beers to get drunk, would not automatically have a lower tolerance when they started drinking again. Their tolerance would already be high. So…if I start eating junk again, does that mean that I will automatically need that huge amount that I used to eat to make me feel good?
NO! I am working on changing my habits…eating and otherwise. I will learn moderation and appreciation for food. I will make sure I eat nutritious, well balanced foods, and when I don’t, I will learn to take them one bite at a time. Enjoy them and then move on. Eat only small portions and be positive about the way I feel after I eat them. I will not beat myself up over eating a cookie. I will say “that was enough. It was good, and now I am done.”
At least, I hope to. I know this is just another variation of what I have said in other blogs, but I just feel like I need to remind myself sometimes.
I hate that this is my addiction. Maybe I can change it to being addicted to being healthy. Anyone care to join me?

"Exercising" my demons...

I really like to exercise. Well, walk. I can walk for hours and hours and totally enjoy myself (proven by training for and doing 2 3-day breast cancer walks). I hate to run, but wish I didn’t. The treadmill isn’t the same either. I get bored. Mostly when I walk I enjoy the scenery and look at houses that are bigger than mine and dream of what it would be like to be in then. Then, to make myself feel better, I think about what it would be like to keep them clean! lol…
I also set goals for myself, imagine what it will be like when I am thin (to the MILF status that we all dream of) and many other things…Today I planned out my timeline in my head. I should be at my goal by the end of NEXT May. Yes, that is May 2008. I have to go slower b/c I am nursing and am only supposed to lose 1 lb a week while I am doing that. I would love to lose weight faster, but…I also want to nurse as long as possible, and my daughter is more important than the way I want to look. Anyway. I am okay with that. I just have to keep telling myself that it took longer than a month to come on so it will take longer than a month to get off. The most important thing is that I will get there.
I also thought about all those other wonderful things I imagine will happen when I lose weight. I want my husbands friends and co-workers to be jealous of him (is that bad?), I want to feel confident and I imagined myself buying size 8 pants off the rack w/out trying them on…and then taking them home and them fitting PERFECTLY! Oh, how wonderful will that be? To have choices and to maybe fit into the things on the sale racks. Ha ha retailers…watch out because Miss July is on her way to mess with your overpricing!
I didn’t want to walk when I got up this morning. I was tired from my day yesterday and didn’t sleep well. My daughter had a particularly rough night and woke up 3 times, when usually it is once and my husband had to leave early for work. (he is in the air natl guard and is drilling this weekend). I got up and had to deal w/the kids by myself (single parents are awesome) and had my cup of coffee and sat there trying to rationalize why I didn’t need to go for a walk. I was tired, I had walked for the last 3 days and really, what would it hurt? I finally decided I would load the kids up and take them for 20 minutes. I mean, really, what is 20 minutes when you are tired. It’s not like I could have napped anyway. Well, we got to the 20 minute mark and I thought, well, I will just walk up the block to where my walk will be 30 minutes. Then, when I got there, I thought if I just keep walking I will be to the point where it won’t matter and I may as well finish b/c it is going to be an hour long walk anyway. And I did. I enjoyed it…as I said, I imagined all kinds of wonderful things and I realized that walking is really like therapy for me. I can imagine good things for myself, I think partially because I know that I am doing something healthy and positive, but because it gives me time away from the house.
I have a challenge for all of you who hate to exercise. Give it 20 minutes. Seriously. That is all I ask. If you can do 20 minutes a day of something you dislike, or even hate, then you can do anything…including getting to goal and maintaining it. Of course, that isn’t the only thing that will get you there, but it will help. Use it as a way to “exercise your demons,” and day dream about the way things will be. Use it to focus yourself and come up with game plans on how to handle tough situtations (not always including food but dealing with your boss, your spouse, your kids, those crazy careless drivers, etc…). Use it as therapy, or relaxation, or a challenge or obstacle you don’t want to face. Just 20 minutes. That is all I ask.

Stressed...give me a...

So, after posting my blog earlier, I was thinking about what I said about stress eating. I tend to eat a lot when I am stressed out. I think it is because I have some anxiety issues and for me, it is this empty/pain feeling in my stomach. So, I put the food in for 1) the comfort of chewing, 2) the comfort of taste and 3) to try and fill that emptiness in my stomach. The first 2, well, those are things that I have to deal with. I can chew on gum or drink some water. The taste, well, that is just a bonus. It is that emptiness that I need to work on. It takes a lot of food to fill it and afterwards I just feel icky because I ate so much. I need to remember that feeling.
I think I did today. I got a yogurt and ate it. 2 points, then I waited for dinner. We had a great dinner from the grill and I had a beer. I don’t normally drink, but I really wanted one. I had more than enough points and it tasted good. I stopped with one. I stopped with one piece of meat, one serving of potatos and, okay, I double dipped on the veggies. I still have points left and am not sure if I will eat them. I have to wait a bit and decide if I am really hungry.
How cool is that? I can actually sit and wait instead of just diving in!