Saturday, November 22, 2008

Good news, bad news...

The good news is that I actually did my "interval training" (thanks Christy) again on Thursday. The bad news is that I walked 15, ran 5, walked 15...3, then walked 15. I got a cramp after 3 minutes and could not go on.
The good news is that I got up at 6 am today and walked 15, ran 8, walked 15, ran 8 and walked 18. How do you like that????

Oh, some bad news for today...I ate like a cow last night. Blech, but it was so good. I hate that.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

I've decided to do it.

Yep, no matter how much I say I hate it. No matter how much I "can't" do it. No matter how hard it is or how long it takes me. I am breaking down.

I am going to learn how to run.

Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....someone might hear me and hold me to it.

I decided that I really needed to find a way to step up the work out and increase my metabolism. I can't run. Really. Maybe 2 minutes it the longest I have ever lasted. And slow, well it is my middle name.
So today, after making this decision, I walked 15 minutes, ran 5, walked 15, ran 5 and walked 15 more. My face was BRIGHT red and I looked like a moron running about as fast as I walked, but hey, I did it.

Now, don't remind me of this post. Maybe if I pretend I didn't write it, I can act like I never had this thought...ha ha! We shall see. Wish me luck.

Good morning to you...good morning to you...

Today is a new day and how beautiful could it be? I mean really...So Cal may be a giant fire hazzard, and an earthquake waiting to happen, but it is November right? It is probably 65 degrees outside...and it is only 7:20am. Life is good.

I am going to take a walk this afternoon. Have my clothes all packed and ready to go. Have snacks packed (subway lunch today) and plans for dinner. I am in how do I stay that way. Most days start like this. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, definately something to think about. Any clues? Hints? Ideas?

Monday, November 17, 2008

i made it!

I made it thru the week...and did well.

I had a wi today and most definately am up, but considering what I had put in my mouth the 2 weeks prior I think it is okay.

So, had a conversation with a friend the other day about food "addiction." I know, I am sure that everyone has said it before, and that even I have said it before but I hate it. No matter what, you still have to eat. It is like no other addiction either. You wouldn't just tell an alcoholic to not drink as much...or a heroin addict to use less and you will be fine. Much like most people without a food addiction or weight problem do. Just eat will lose. Whatever.

Anyhoo, I hate that it is my addiction. I hate that I can make my self sick eating. Seriously, what is wrong with me? Why can't I be addicted to exercise? Sigh...

Enough whining. Just move on already.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008


Sometimes life just gets in the way of my blog.

I am so tired. I can't believe how exhausted I am. Dh was gone for pretty much the last 2 weeks. So, in the last 9 weeks, we have not been home together for longer than a week at a time. The kids are feeling it, I am feeling it and my house is wearing it.

I have not counted points or weighed in for 2 weeks. I did start on program again on Monday. I know I will be up, but I just couldn't bear to see the scale. I was afraid it would start a nasty spiral...

I meant to make a post thanking all the veterans yesterday, but I got so busy making pumpkin bread and jam (I only ate one small bite of the bread) for the holidays it just didn't happen. Anyhoo, the point of this is that I really want to mention how grateful I am for all that veterans and their families do for our country. And what an amazing country it is. Thank you for all the possibilities that you have helped to provide for us. Thank you for your sacrifices (and I know they are many). Thank you for the long hours, the crazy scary trips and for allowing me to feel safe and protected in my home. You are all amazing and generous. I am so truly blessed to work along side and be able to support so many of you. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

I'm here, I 'm alive

Just suffering from exhaustion. More later.