I think I may be drowning.

Baah! I have had so much water in the last 2 days. I am really trying to keep my water consumption up in order to help me stay hydrated as well as watch what I am eating. I totally lost my water drinking will sometime in my last pg. See, what happened, is my one and only craving that entire pg was for regular coke or pepsi...I am not a soda drinker either so it was a little weird. Well, it totally got me off teh water drinking that I used to be so good at. I still love water but I would much rather have a darned can of pop. Ugg! It sounds so good. At least I am back to diet but still, drink water first!

So anyway, I think I am drowning. I go to the bathroom so many times a day I think people must think I am avoiding them, work or both.

Oh well, off to finish my 3rd bottle of the day...it is only 12.

To eat...or not to eat...

Well, remember all the coffee I had today? That, along w/the water has totally kept my eating down and now I still have 9 points left. I am not hungry but do I eat anyway?

I think I won't. It isn't going to kill me to be under. I ate MORE than my share of points yesterday, although I still have some weekly points left. Good thing since my bday is on Saturday. Ugg! Don't even want to think about that one.

Well, just rambling now, so off to watch my soap and play w/the DS. Yes, I am doing NOTHING productive this evening. Dh is at school and the kids are in bed. Mommy gets some free time. YEAH!!!!!!!

See you later. :-)

Too much coffee....

I am feeling really hyper right now...waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much coffee today!! Seriously. I think I am up to 6 or 7 cups. I love how much energy I have but know I am going to crash hard.
The good news is that b/c I have had so much I have no appetite. Yeah me! I have been careful to drink 4 bottles of water today too...so the bathroom is my friend.
I am afriad I am going to crash really hard!
More later!

Committed...or Crazy?

So my cousin has decided to do a body building/sculpting contest. She has to get down to 5% (yes, that is a Five) body fat. Is that normal?

Anyway, the things she has to do for this. She works out 2 times a day. Once for cardio and once for weights. She does take one day off a week tho. She has to eat 5 meals a day...and they aren't small. Tons of protein, tons of fiberous and starchy carbs and drinks tons of water. She also has to take airborne to help w/the vitamins and minerals she is missing out on.

She came to visit this weekend and packed a cooler to check on the plane with her food for the time she was here.

Now, while I appreciate her commitment to her cause, I think she may be crazy. Seriously. That is a LOT of work. And 5%???? Really??? I think a woman should have more than that, but then hey, who am I? I thought it was hilarious that she actually packed a suitcase cooler full of food too. I bet the airline guys were wondering what the heck she was trying to smuggle. So, yeah, I really do think she is crazy.

Except, that is how I get when I am really focused on my weight loss. I won't eat out, I pack my foods, I measure exact portions...I only wish I had the work out ability. (I suppose I do, but with 2 toddlers running around, I really just want to sleep in my down time.) Except, I don't really want to go to the gym 2 times a day. I would rather just take a walk around the block. But, when I decide that I really want to exercise, I freak out until I am able to do it that day so I don't get off track...oh, those words too...I obessess about being on-track so that if I get off-track it could quite possibly be the end of the world.

So, I guess I am crazy too. Really, the truth is that I don't know how to eat normal, or exercise normal so it freaks me out if I am doing well and get back to my old ways. Maybe I need to figure out how to make this a lifestyle change, instead of a diet and then focus on that. It is just so hard for me not to obsess.

I have to go to work now, but this may be a lot longer post when I really have time to analyze it. I really just wanted to start jotting my thoughts down.

Weekly Weigh In...

Well, I had a loss, but not much. .2 lbs I guess I shouldn't complain, but I really felt like I was doing better than that.

Oh well, life goes on.

made it thru the weekend but didn't get half done what I needed too! :gaah!

I wanna win this too!

Okay, this is off Roni's page

This contest is over... :-(

A Cowboy’s Wife is having a contest on her food blog! You can win a Hamilton Beach® Stand Mixer and she’ll ship anywhere so everyone is eligible!

Got to love the contest!

My baby is 1... :-(

A little sad about this. She is my last and it makes me sad...but happy at the same time. She is a good girl and I am really lucky. :-)

Did well last night. Served tons of veggies and stuff to go with the ham I made for dinner. Angel food cake for dessert and managed to come in right at my points for the day.

WI tomorrow so we shall see how the week went.

I might post more later...am super busy right now.

I haven't been around

My life is nuts. My daughter turns 1 today and I am kind of at a loss. She is my last baby and it is hard on me. I guess I didn't realize exactly how much work 2 toddlers...and a husband...would be.
I got off track for a while but that happens. I gave myself the holidays and that was a mistake, but I wanted to be "okay" with eating whatever I wanted. I should have known better.
I started back on WW the other day. I won't add how much I gained (it was a lot) but I did not gain ALL the weight back and that in itself is a victory for me.
I lost 3.3 last week and will be weighing in again on Monday so here comes those weekly weigh ins!
Hope to see some of my old friends. I am going to track you girls down!!!