Down 1.1 lb for a 5 week total of 13.5 lbs…(now I guess I really have to start believing that 1 lb a week is good, since I am nursing).
This is taken off the ww web site (my inspirational quote they give me every week)…
WAY TO GO! Congratulations for losing weight this week. We hope you’re thrilled with the result. Here’s a quote by Aristotle that we thought might strike a chord with you: “We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then, is not an act, but a habit.”
Keep practicing your excellence and have a great week.
So, I guess they are telling me I need to repeatedly eat well and exercise in order to be healthy (and lose weight, but to also maintain)!
Hey, isn’t this similar to what I wrote about last night? Habits…addictions…okay, I want to overtake my addiction with a healthy HABIT!
Monday, April 30, 2007
1 week...
I go back to work in 1 week. I am really struggling with this because I don’t want to. I want to be a stay at home mom. I am so enjoying it this time around (last time I had some baby blues so I was ready to go back). I love being with my son and daughter every day and I hate that I won’t be the one to take care of them, but I have to work. We do have a mortgage to pay.
I am struggling with the depression that this is causing me. It really makes me sad, and in turn, makes me want to eat. I keep telling myself that I don’t need to, and it is working, but that little demon is still there.
No need to worry, yet, about me. I will be fine and I am in a good place right now where I can continually push that little buggar away when he says “go on, you want to binge…” The thing is, I don’t. I don’t want to binge. I want to be healthy. So, I will be.
I still have to go back to work and when I get there, I will have to deal with all the food and parties and events that they have but I will be fine. So will my kids. I just wish…
If only I could win the lottery!
I am struggling with the depression that this is causing me. It really makes me sad, and in turn, makes me want to eat. I keep telling myself that I don’t need to, and it is working, but that little demon is still there.
No need to worry, yet, about me. I will be fine and I am in a good place right now where I can continually push that little buggar away when he says “go on, you want to binge…” The thing is, I don’t. I don’t want to binge. I want to be healthy. So, I will be.
I still have to go back to work and when I get there, I will have to deal with all the food and parties and events that they have but I will be fine. So will my kids. I just wish…
If only I could win the lottery!
Cucumber and Tomato Salad
For all of you who are looking for a quick and easy way to change up your veggies! (I am always looking for something new to make my husband eat them…the toddler loved this too)
I made this last night for dinner. 0 points! Yummy too!
2 peeled chopped cucumbers
3 chopped tomato’s
FF Italian dressing
Italian seasoning….
Mix veggies and stir in some Italian dressing and seasoning to taste.
I made this last night for dinner. 0 points! Yummy too!
2 peeled chopped cucumbers
3 chopped tomato’s
FF Italian dressing
Italian seasoning….
Mix veggies and stir in some Italian dressing and seasoning to taste.
The irony of flying time!
We have all heard the phrase “Time flies when you are having fun,” and really, it does. The reason I bring this up is the post I wrote earlier about going back to work (I’m on a roll today). I am having fun. My daughter is 13 weeks old and I go back to work after she is 14 weeks old. I will have been off work for a total of 3 1/2 months, 4 1/2 if you count the 4 weeks prior to her birth that I was off. I am so lucky and I have been having a great time. It has gone by so fast. Too fast.
I have also noticed, how fast time goes by when I gain weight. It must be fun…ha ha! Really, I enjoy eating, so gaining weight would make sense that it happens “quicker” than I can keep track of.
The irony of this statement is that losing weight (well, in my head it is irony), which isn’t fun, takes FOREVER! I enjoy being healthy, but don’t enjoy restricting myself and the things that I eat. I don’t enjoy watching everyone else enjoy sweets and treats and bread and other things, while I feel deprived. Again, one of those stupid mental things I am working on.
I am actually trying to make losing weight fun. I make good, healthy foods (tasty too). I enjoy my exercise. I make short term “bets” with myself. I want to make this fun…so time will fly.
I have also noticed, how fast time goes by when I gain weight. It must be fun…ha ha! Really, I enjoy eating, so gaining weight would make sense that it happens “quicker” than I can keep track of.
The irony of this statement is that losing weight (well, in my head it is irony), which isn’t fun, takes FOREVER! I enjoy being healthy, but don’t enjoy restricting myself and the things that I eat. I don’t enjoy watching everyone else enjoy sweets and treats and bread and other things, while I feel deprived. Again, one of those stupid mental things I am working on.
I am actually trying to make losing weight fun. I make good, healthy foods (tasty too). I enjoy my exercise. I make short term “bets” with myself. I want to make this fun…so time will fly.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
I know we have all said this...or at least most of us but
food is my addiction. I do not drink alcohol to excess, I do not use drugs, I do not over-exercise (although it probably wouldn’t hurt to have more movement in my life), I do not get involved in sleazy things on-line or in real life, I do not…the list goes on and on and on. I do, however, eat.
The problem with food as an addiction is you need it to survive. It’s not like you can just stop eating and attend meetings and be “dry” or “clean.” You have to eat. I could stop eating chocolate or sugar, but then I would eat more bread or meat or cheese. I can not survive on veggies alone (although I love them, I would go crazy). You know, they say when an alcoholic or drug addict return to using after being “dry” they start off right where they left off. So, for example, an alcoholic who needed 24 beers to get drunk, would not automatically have a lower tolerance when they started drinking again. Their tolerance would already be high. So…if I start eating junk again, does that mean that I will automatically need that huge amount that I used to eat to make me feel good?
NO! I am working on changing my habits…eating and otherwise. I will learn moderation and appreciation for food. I will make sure I eat nutritious, well balanced foods, and when I don’t, I will learn to take them one bite at a time. Enjoy them and then move on. Eat only small portions and be positive about the way I feel after I eat them. I will not beat myself up over eating a cookie. I will say “that was enough. It was good, and now I am done.”
At least, I hope to. I know this is just another variation of what I have said in other blogs, but I just feel like I need to remind myself sometimes.
I hate that this is my addiction. Maybe I can change it to being addicted to being healthy. Anyone care to join me?
The problem with food as an addiction is you need it to survive. It’s not like you can just stop eating and attend meetings and be “dry” or “clean.” You have to eat. I could stop eating chocolate or sugar, but then I would eat more bread or meat or cheese. I can not survive on veggies alone (although I love them, I would go crazy). You know, they say when an alcoholic or drug addict return to using after being “dry” they start off right where they left off. So, for example, an alcoholic who needed 24 beers to get drunk, would not automatically have a lower tolerance when they started drinking again. Their tolerance would already be high. So…if I start eating junk again, does that mean that I will automatically need that huge amount that I used to eat to make me feel good?
NO! I am working on changing my habits…eating and otherwise. I will learn moderation and appreciation for food. I will make sure I eat nutritious, well balanced foods, and when I don’t, I will learn to take them one bite at a time. Enjoy them and then move on. Eat only small portions and be positive about the way I feel after I eat them. I will not beat myself up over eating a cookie. I will say “that was enough. It was good, and now I am done.”
At least, I hope to. I know this is just another variation of what I have said in other blogs, but I just feel like I need to remind myself sometimes.
I hate that this is my addiction. Maybe I can change it to being addicted to being healthy. Anyone care to join me?
Saturday, April 28, 2007
"Exercising" my demons...
I really like to exercise. Well, walk. I can walk for hours and hours and totally enjoy myself (proven by training for and doing 2 3-day breast cancer walks). I hate to run, but wish I didn’t. The treadmill isn’t the same either. I get bored. Mostly when I walk I enjoy the scenery and look at houses that are bigger than mine and dream of what it would be like to be in then. Then, to make myself feel better, I think about what it would be like to keep them clean! lol…
I also set goals for myself, imagine what it will be like when I am thin (to the MILF status that we all dream of) and many other things…Today I planned out my timeline in my head. I should be at my goal by the end of NEXT May. Yes, that is May 2008. I have to go slower b/c I am nursing and am only supposed to lose 1 lb a week while I am doing that. I would love to lose weight faster, but…I also want to nurse as long as possible, and my daughter is more important than the way I want to look. Anyway. I am okay with that. I just have to keep telling myself that it took longer than a month to come on so it will take longer than a month to get off. The most important thing is that I will get there.
I also thought about all those other wonderful things I imagine will happen when I lose weight. I want my husbands friends and co-workers to be jealous of him (is that bad?), I want to feel confident and I imagined myself buying size 8 pants off the rack w/out trying them on…and then taking them home and them fitting PERFECTLY! Oh, how wonderful will that be? To have choices and to maybe fit into the things on the sale racks. Ha ha retailers…watch out because Miss July is on her way to mess with your overpricing!
I didn’t want to walk when I got up this morning. I was tired from my day yesterday and didn’t sleep well. My daughter had a particularly rough night and woke up 3 times, when usually it is once and my husband had to leave early for work. (he is in the air natl guard and is drilling this weekend). I got up and had to deal w/the kids by myself (single parents are awesome) and had my cup of coffee and sat there trying to rationalize why I didn’t need to go for a walk. I was tired, I had walked for the last 3 days and really, what would it hurt? I finally decided I would load the kids up and take them for 20 minutes. I mean, really, what is 20 minutes when you are tired. It’s not like I could have napped anyway. Well, we got to the 20 minute mark and I thought, well, I will just walk up the block to where my walk will be 30 minutes. Then, when I got there, I thought if I just keep walking I will be to the point where it won’t matter and I may as well finish b/c it is going to be an hour long walk anyway. And I did. I enjoyed it…as I said, I imagined all kinds of wonderful things and I realized that walking is really like therapy for me. I can imagine good things for myself, I think partially because I know that I am doing something healthy and positive, but because it gives me time away from the house.
I have a challenge for all of you who hate to exercise. Give it 20 minutes. Seriously. That is all I ask. If you can do 20 minutes a day of something you dislike, or even hate, then you can do anything…including getting to goal and maintaining it. Of course, that isn’t the only thing that will get you there, but it will help. Use it as a way to “exercise your demons,” and day dream about the way things will be. Use it to focus yourself and come up with game plans on how to handle tough situtations (not always including food but dealing with your boss, your spouse, your kids, those crazy careless drivers, etc…). Use it as therapy, or relaxation, or a challenge or obstacle you don’t want to face. Just 20 minutes. That is all I ask.
I also set goals for myself, imagine what it will be like when I am thin (to the MILF status that we all dream of) and many other things…Today I planned out my timeline in my head. I should be at my goal by the end of NEXT May. Yes, that is May 2008. I have to go slower b/c I am nursing and am only supposed to lose 1 lb a week while I am doing that. I would love to lose weight faster, but…I also want to nurse as long as possible, and my daughter is more important than the way I want to look. Anyway. I am okay with that. I just have to keep telling myself that it took longer than a month to come on so it will take longer than a month to get off. The most important thing is that I will get there.
I also thought about all those other wonderful things I imagine will happen when I lose weight. I want my husbands friends and co-workers to be jealous of him (is that bad?), I want to feel confident and I imagined myself buying size 8 pants off the rack w/out trying them on…and then taking them home and them fitting PERFECTLY! Oh, how wonderful will that be? To have choices and to maybe fit into the things on the sale racks. Ha ha retailers…watch out because Miss July is on her way to mess with your overpricing!
I didn’t want to walk when I got up this morning. I was tired from my day yesterday and didn’t sleep well. My daughter had a particularly rough night and woke up 3 times, when usually it is once and my husband had to leave early for work. (he is in the air natl guard and is drilling this weekend). I got up and had to deal w/the kids by myself (single parents are awesome) and had my cup of coffee and sat there trying to rationalize why I didn’t need to go for a walk. I was tired, I had walked for the last 3 days and really, what would it hurt? I finally decided I would load the kids up and take them for 20 minutes. I mean, really, what is 20 minutes when you are tired. It’s not like I could have napped anyway. Well, we got to the 20 minute mark and I thought, well, I will just walk up the block to where my walk will be 30 minutes. Then, when I got there, I thought if I just keep walking I will be to the point where it won’t matter and I may as well finish b/c it is going to be an hour long walk anyway. And I did. I enjoyed it…as I said, I imagined all kinds of wonderful things and I realized that walking is really like therapy for me. I can imagine good things for myself, I think partially because I know that I am doing something healthy and positive, but because it gives me time away from the house.
I have a challenge for all of you who hate to exercise. Give it 20 minutes. Seriously. That is all I ask. If you can do 20 minutes a day of something you dislike, or even hate, then you can do anything…including getting to goal and maintaining it. Of course, that isn’t the only thing that will get you there, but it will help. Use it as a way to “exercise your demons,” and day dream about the way things will be. Use it to focus yourself and come up with game plans on how to handle tough situtations (not always including food but dealing with your boss, your spouse, your kids, those crazy careless drivers, etc…). Use it as therapy, or relaxation, or a challenge or obstacle you don’t want to face. Just 20 minutes. That is all I ask.
Friday, April 27, 2007
Stressed...give me a...
So, after posting my blog earlier, I was thinking about what I said about stress eating. I tend to eat a lot when I am stressed out. I think it is because I have some anxiety issues and for me, it is this empty/pain feeling in my stomach. So, I put the food in for 1) the comfort of chewing, 2) the comfort of taste and 3) to try and fill that emptiness in my stomach. The first 2, well, those are things that I have to deal with. I can chew on gum or drink some water. The taste, well, that is just a bonus. It is that emptiness that I need to work on. It takes a lot of food to fill it and afterwards I just feel icky because I ate so much. I need to remember that feeling.
I think I did today. I got a yogurt and ate it. 2 points, then I waited for dinner. We had a great dinner from the grill and I had a beer. I don’t normally drink, but I really wanted one. I had more than enough points and it tasted good. I stopped with one. I stopped with one piece of meat, one serving of potatos and, okay, I double dipped on the veggies. I still have points left and am not sure if I will eat them. I have to wait a bit and decide if I am really hungry.
How cool is that? I can actually sit and wait instead of just diving in!
I think I did today. I got a yogurt and ate it. 2 points, then I waited for dinner. We had a great dinner from the grill and I had a beer. I don’t normally drink, but I really wanted one. I had more than enough points and it tasted good. I stopped with one. I stopped with one piece of meat, one serving of potatos and, okay, I double dipped on the veggies. I still have points left and am not sure if I will eat them. I have to wait a bit and decide if I am really hungry.
How cool is that? I can actually sit and wait instead of just diving in!
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